Fifty minutes

Fifty minutes until I turn twenty two.

Is it weird that I feel like anything after twenty one is officially adult? I mean the next big thing I have to look forward to is what? Thirty? Oh dear.

Well, here's farewell to my twenty first year of life, the most miserable three months of my life and to the next twelve months of empowerment coming my way.

And here's to the love of my life, the only man in the world I'll love until the day I die for pulling me reluctantly along this road with him. He keeps me shining. <3

That unpredictable thing called life.

Wow.

Again it's been a few months until my last post and I feel like I don't know how to even start on all the things that have changed.

First of all, I lost my job. Yeah. That sucked. It's been close to three months without being successful in the lack of job interviews I've had for the lack of job interviews to apply for. These last three months have been possibly the hardest I've encountered. Its hard to be unable to support myself and buy the things I want but thankfully I have an amazing partner who has been a pillar of support.

Its funny when people say you should be grateful for what you have. I feel like it's a suger coated way of saying you shouldn't want more than you have, you shouldn't have dreams or desires because you'll just be let down and really it's best to just be content stuck in whatever rut you're in and try not to think about it.

I'd like the world to know that I'm not giving up. I'm not going to be lured into some kind of dark well of self pity and depression. I will get through this. Watch. 

Good evening sir blog!

So once again I have abandoned my dear blog for quite a while, not due to business bit once again due to laziness. Admittedly I. Haven't had anything fantastic to blog about recently since we haven't really been up to much except working and trying to save.

I'd go ahead and say so far tht my gumming experience has been a success, although I haven't been so far this week I'm finding that I'm starting to look forward to it more now and I actually feel bad if I don't attend. I have also lost a little bit of weight so that an epic bonus.

Last weekend was pretty full on also, I worked Friday night and then went out for tea with the girls from work. We come home relatively early so I hung out with my BFF Cameron and got drunk and decided it would be a fantastic to write and sing songs and put it on Facebook. It was pretty good to just hang out with Cam on our own as we don't really get the chance to hang out together much at all. Eventually we got to bed about three thirty which was a bad idea because we had a garage sale Saturday morning and I had to get up at five thirty ( I was still debunk in the shower )

Sunday consisted of all of us getting up and going to the even dale market which was great fun also. We ate Dagwood dogs for breakfast and brought some random shit like you do at a market and then just hung out together and relaxed Sunday night!

All in all I'd say a good weekend was had as usual. Loving life right now!!!

Ps- this is the first blog ruled entirely on my new iPad !

The Weekend

This weekend started without any plans at all and has ended with me feeling so happy I'm just sitting here smiling to myself as I write. Its baffling how lucky someone can be to find that person you can just do anything with and have a fantastic time! I'm very lucky!

Taz being gorgeous

 Friday night after finishing work Aaron and I decided to drive to my hometown to see my parents and go to the cinema to see The Avengers again. That movie is so insanely good and Laura hadn't had the chance to go and see it yet so we all went up on a three way date night and had an absolute ball together. Seeing my parents was a super bonus as well because somedays I just miss them so much.


Saturday I had lunch with some friends I'd been meaning to catch up with forever. It was so good to see them all and to hear about the things they're doing and planning although I left lunch feeling ver nostalgic, we all used to work together and spend every night emailing and being hilarious. I missed them all heaps and now I have my phone working again I fully intend on harassing them heaps!

Samson <3 

After Lunch Laura and I decided to toddle over to the gym over the road ( seriously its like a four second walk ) to have a look at joining up etc. We'd been talking about doing it for a while and so on a whim we went over, had a talk with the people there who showed us around and right on the spot we joined up! I'm pretty excited to be going to a proper gym again simply because the ones I've been going to are the 24 hr ones. I mean, I can understand how those kinds of gyms work out for people who are well educated on exercise and know exactly what they need to do ( my ex boyfriend for example ) but for the little old me that has pretty much no idea? I need to be pushed and encouraged. I kinda like being in a group all doing the same thing too mainly because I know I'm not the only one looking like an idiot! I also got to buy some super cute new sneakers!

Sunday was probably the most epic day of my weekend, Laura and I got up and went to a balance class at the gym! It was very cool to learn a little more about all the balances and poses involved with yoga etc. I stretched muscles I haven't felt in years and nearly face planted several times while trying to balance myself. There was a really old guy infront of me putting me to absolute shame! I was mortified at being so unfit for my age but it was definitely motivating. The instructor was really encouraging too which put my mind at ease a lot but it was so hard not to laugh, I mean I live with Laura and everything but there was a little too much face in arse action going on for us! 

This afternoon Aaron and I went to the gorge for a date. It was good to see Aaron had his camera out again as he's very talented when it comes to all things creative. I was super excited because he took me on the chairlift! I'm not sure why I hadn't been on it before considering I live ten minutes away but it was very fun and we walked back through the gorge and took some great pictures on the way, we must have looked funny to everyone else who was there because we were running around laughing without a care in the world.

I'm excited for the following week and to try some new classes out at the gym! I've even packed mine and Aarons lunch in an effort to save money and be a little healthier. I figure as long as I'm doing it its good to encourage him as well :)

I say bring on the long working week! I'm excited for a new lifestyle and a new attitude :)

Because I need to write.

I feel wierd. I just feel, wierd. I'm at a wierd place in my life and I just want a clear indication of where the hell I'm going.

I feel like for the last five or so years I've just been floating around not doing anything I've ever wanted or set out to do and I'm slowly realising the fact that I have simply wasted so much time planning to do things I've forgotten to do them. I want to do so much and for some strange reason I panic that I'm running out of time. Like, I'm twenty one for gods sake - its ridiculous.

I wanted this year to be the year I did something about my dreams but so far its turning out to be just the same old shit. Don't get me wrong I have an amazing family and fantastic friends here and we have great times together but its just not enough. I need to get out, to get away from this person I'm becoming. I dont want to be a retail manager all my life but I'm starting to think thats exactly whats going to happen.

I just have got to start thinking positive, as of right now. I AM going to pay off my debt. I AM going to find a dance class that will take me. I AM going to FINALLY get to music theatre school and become the person I know I am.

I know I was given my voice as a gift, I just have to use it.

Tuesday

What a fantastic start to the working week! Firstly I wake up at like 4am to what sounded like ninty seven cats in an all out brawl so I get out of bed and begrudgingly toddle outside in my nighty to hunt around for my Banjo.
Sure enough after calling him a few times he comes around from the front yard looking so bushy you'd think he was feral but he thankfully wasn't hurt. I took him inside but achieved nothing but freezing my arse off.

Before I know it it's seven am and I have to get up and shower which I do without any trouble, then I proceed to hunt for clothes to wear, I put on a cute knitted dress and think " why my gold elastic belt would look most fabulous with this " so I pull at the belt ... What's that? It's stuck? I pull it harder... Next thing I know it flicks put of the closet and the buckle hits me in the throat. I die.

Suffice to say I'm interested to see how today turns out. I also forgot my wallet, rolled my ankle twice and forgot to pack my lunch.

Sometimes I am too awesome for words.

kitty love

I had myself a great day off today. Granted, I did a lot of washing which was not exciting but I also got to have lunch with my sister, brother in law and niece! My family live an hour away so its rare any of them get time to come and visit me here. My niece is one in a few months and every single time I see her she gets bigger and is learning more things. It's incredible how fast kids grow.

I also got to have time with my cat banjo who I love dearly. He is a bit of a snob but means the world to me, Ia friend of a friend found him on the side of the road when he was only six weeks old and I've had him pretty much since. He was about one when I broke up with my boyfriend at the time and since I couldn't have him he was taken in by the RSPCA. I remember be totally heartbroken and felt so guilty when I learned this but I was told he was adopted fairly quickly. I spent nearly another year missing him and when I finally brought myself to be able to even think about getting another pet I jumped on the RSPCA website and there he was. What's more incredible is that there was no photo just a description of a ginger cat named Banjo. I called them instantly and after explaining my story they told me they couldn't tell me who surrendered him originally but if I could give her the correct address of where he was picked up they'd tell me yes or no. Suffice to say it was a yes and an hour drive later I walked into his cage and it was like we'd never been separated. The ladies at the RSPCA said although he'd only been there a day they'd never seen a cat meow and purr as much as he did :)

I'm not one to believe in anything out of the ordinary but you cannot tell me for a second that Banjo and I aren't destined to be together.

Market Day

Its funny how unplanned things can mostly be better than the things you spend ages planning. Take today for instance Aaron and I were originally annoyed we woke up at 8:30am on a SUNDAY but instead of going back to sleep ( as we usually would ) we decided to get up and go to the markets around town. I'd heard Evandale market is pretty awesome and boy oh boy I wasnt disappointed! There's really nothing I'd rather do on a sunday morning that rummage through other peoples old crap and eat spanish doughnuts for breakfast. We even managed to pick up a few things for our wedding ( not that we're engaged or anything - we just like to be ready! ) We got home about lunch time and spent most of the afternoon cleaning our house which was a joyous occasion as always and then went to tea with the in-laws which of course is a Sunday night tradition.  My best friend K got these ah-mazing hair extentions recently and I finally got to see them in! She looks even MORE stunning than she usually is! 

Speaking of Gaga I was browsing around on Etsy today and came across a BRILLIANT woman who handmakes amazing Lady Gaga costumes! You can find her Facebook here - totally amazing and worth a look, I can't wait to see if she can help me out for the born this way ball! 

In other news my blog is currently in the process of being revamped by my super talented boyfrend Aaron. I'm hoping to have nearly all of it done tomorrow night so I feel like actually coming back to write on it. I've seen so many other purdy blogs I wanted mine to stand out so I blackmailed him basically. 

All in all a fantastic Sunday was had, what makes it even better though is that I have tomorrow off! 

Winning! 

Tonight:

I drank a lt of wine tonight and sang my heart out, it was awesome. 

A change

So this weekend I made a pretty dramatic decision.

I changed my hair color for the first time in around 5 years.

I know it may not seem like a huge deal to most but I have been blonde my entire life and just randomly decided to be brave and try something braver. I'm pretty stoked at how it's turned out ( not orange thank god" ) but it is a bit strange hardly being able to recognize yourself

To me, this simple change in hair color signifies the huge changes I'm about to force my life to deal with. :) I'm taking a more active role in how my life plays out i've decided and step one is to start being more fearless.

I hope you like it!

Another day

So today was my last day of holidays for Easter. I decided to randomly go and visit one of my best friends who lives about two hours drive from me because I haven't seen her pretty much since early in the year and she always cheers me up and gives me perspective on my so called " problems."

The greatest thing about true friends is it doesn't matter how long it's been since you've seen each other, you just pick up your relationship like you've never been apart. I have never in my life had more fun sitting under an electric blanket dribbling shit in a Russian accent.

This woman is amazing, always there when I need her and one of the most wonderful people in the universe.

That awkward moment you forget you have a blog for four months.

So apparentluy my life is so hectic * cough * that I forget that I have a blog for like four whole months.

To be totally honest it not that far from the truth. I work most days until six then play Battlefield untill I sleep. My existance may not consist of much but hey - its an existance.

In the last four months I guess a lot has happened. My gorgeous sister got married, I went again to the gorgeous city of Melbourne to see John Cleese live with my partner which was amazing. We decided for sure that we want to move there and go to school. I secured Lady Gaga tickets for June which I am all kinds of super fucking excited for. I wish I could decide on a costume though!

Looking back at my new years resolutions ( considering we're at the four month mark ) I am not impressed with my efforts so far! I have pretty much done nothing since I last posted on this blog and now considering it is no longer summer I cant do some things ( like go for walks ) as easily. 

New motivation time I think!

I'm currently at an eleven hour gaming lock in at my local Internet gaming place. All of my friends are playing League of Legands which looks to me a lot like World of Warcraft so I'm thinking they'll probably end up addicted to it. Perhaps I'll have to install toilets below their computer chairs in future if it gets too bad?

In other news, since I work for a super cool fashion brand now I am LOVING the new clothes that is filling my new wardrobe too. Coloured denim is huge at the moment with large layered tops to go with them. High wedges are a must have and even the new wedges you can get that dont have a heel are getting really popular. Of course I must get myself a pair of these shoes but where I live there isnt anywhere that actually stocks them. 

Anyway I'm thinking it may be just about time for another game of battlefield so I am out and PROMISE to write something more entertaining and elightning tomorrow!

A perfect day

Today was pretty close to a perfect day.

And why is that you may ask? Well, Its because I did so many things I just LOVE doing and really took the time to just soak it in and enjoy it ( New years resolution success! )

I spent today in my hometown which is around an hour away from where I live now and still is home to my entire family and my closest friends. Since the car hasn't been working I havent taken the time to go and stay at Mum and Dads for a few months and its really sucked not being able to see my nieces and nephew especially because they just grow up so damn fast!

Aside from missing my family two out of three of my best friends live there and I hardly ever get to see them! Steph and I have been best friends for seven years and have nearly never argued or had anything that counts as a fight. We used to just have such awesome funny times and I've really missed it! Its more epic when we get together with Chantal and do weir stuff and listen to the music of the 2000's! ( No idea when we got old by the way )

My best hoe <3

So thats exactly what I did today. We went down to this place we used to call " Vodka Rocks " in grade ten ( we found a red bear can there once ) and just laid out on the rocks and reminisced about all the fun times we've had and I once again started my crusade on getting them to move to live near me.

Speaking of sunscreen, I nearly lost my shit laughing when I found a little tube of " Quadblock " in Stephs car. You see, a few years ago when Steph was doing her Pharmacy qualifications she got sent giant boxes of " quadblock " sunscreen for doing an assignment on it or something. But like this was seriously

Bubblegum fanta!

YEARS ago and she still bloody has some.

Its crazy to think I've known these ladies for so long. The thing I love the most about our friendship is the fact we can quite literally go for months without talking to each other or seeing each other but as soon as we get together it's like we see each other everyday. I cannot stand the kind of girls who need that friendship that means they have to always be around and in your life. I'm a firm believer that no matter the distance, true friends are always true friends.

The really great thing about today was the fact I enjoyed it. I shared a laugh with my Daddy, showed my Mum the new Facebook app for her phone and had a gossip with my sister. Not to mention I got to cuddle my stunning niece! But most of all I loved that I was home, in the house all of us kids grew up in. Theres something special about the house you became an adult in. Theres just so many memories everywhere you look and that is the beauty of a real family.

Channy checking if the water is minus ten or minus fifteen - Cold, but gorgeous ocean. 

Spring cleaning in summer

Today I have spent the entire day cleaning while Aaron played battlefield for almost ten hours! I made him
Breakfast and he pretty much hasn't moved from the couch since! Meanwhile I cleaned around him in the living room , washed and cleaned my car and turned my floordrobe into a wardrobe. Pretty productive I must
say!

It's def a good feeling to have tidy surroundings and it's really made me feel good about the new year. Imagine what I could do if I was this productive all year?

In other news I am super excited to have joined a book club! Though most of the books will be downloaded onto my iBooks rather than actual books, I
Am pumped to read new things and be able to meet new people who are as passionate about reading as I am!

Anyway, that's all the news for today! I'm trying to get back in the routine of going to bed at a reasonable time. Loves it!!!


Ps- as you can see, kitty helped me today!

Day one of a new beginning

Welcome 2012! I am super pumped to have you here.

Today is a new year and with it comes the cliche resolutions. So here are the ones everyone makes:

- Obviously will lose weight.
- In relation to the above, I will start exercising everyday. Even if its just a walk.
- I will save money and pay off my debt.

Now, to the ones specific to me.

- This is the year I will learn to speak French
- I will continue to document my life goals, dreams and promises to myself here in this blog
- I will take up a dance class
- Whenever I start to get bored, I will teach myself to do something new
- I will read one book a month, minimum.

There they are. Now these things are on the internet I HAVE to obey them!

In other news, today was spent at the beach at Aarons uncles shack. We had a fab day in the sun and I made the realisation that I have missed swimming in the ocean heaps. I grew up about 5 minutes away from the ocean and used to go swimming all the time, now however I live inland and the nearest beach isn't as close.

Even though our legs were still burning from laser tag, we managed a few games of beach cricket and soccer. I'm pretty sure we'll pay for it tomorrow though, which is Aarons last day of holidays. Its funny how the weeks at work seem to go so slow but the one week you're all on holidays goes super fast. I still have a week off to enjoy but then I'm off to Melbourne for work for a whole week on my own. I will surely be taking my 3ds and laptop!

All in all I must say it was an amazing way to bring in the new year. I'm hoping that the bliss of today is a sign for what we can expect the rest of the year to contain. I have so much going already and I cannot wait for it all to kick off! There's weddings, festivals, a new job and many many more adventures we already have planned. Hopefully it will be a year of experiences we'll never forget!