Fifty minutes

Fifty minutes until I turn twenty two.

Is it weird that I feel like anything after twenty one is officially adult? I mean the next big thing I have to look forward to is what? Thirty? Oh dear.

Well, here's farewell to my twenty first year of life, the most miserable three months of my life and to the next twelve months of empowerment coming my way.

And here's to the love of my life, the only man in the world I'll love until the day I die for pulling me reluctantly along this road with him. He keeps me shining. <3

That unpredictable thing called life.

Wow.

Again it's been a few months until my last post and I feel like I don't know how to even start on all the things that have changed.

First of all, I lost my job. Yeah. That sucked. It's been close to three months without being successful in the lack of job interviews I've had for the lack of job interviews to apply for. These last three months have been possibly the hardest I've encountered. Its hard to be unable to support myself and buy the things I want but thankfully I have an amazing partner who has been a pillar of support.

Its funny when people say you should be grateful for what you have. I feel like it's a suger coated way of saying you shouldn't want more than you have, you shouldn't have dreams or desires because you'll just be let down and really it's best to just be content stuck in whatever rut you're in and try not to think about it.

I'd like the world to know that I'm not giving up. I'm not going to be lured into some kind of dark well of self pity and depression. I will get through this. Watch. 

Good evening sir blog!

So once again I have abandoned my dear blog for quite a while, not due to business bit once again due to laziness. Admittedly I. Haven't had anything fantastic to blog about recently since we haven't really been up to much except working and trying to save.

I'd go ahead and say so far tht my gumming experience has been a success, although I haven't been so far this week I'm finding that I'm starting to look forward to it more now and I actually feel bad if I don't attend. I have also lost a little bit of weight so that an epic bonus.

Last weekend was pretty full on also, I worked Friday night and then went out for tea with the girls from work. We come home relatively early so I hung out with my BFF Cameron and got drunk and decided it would be a fantastic to write and sing songs and put it on Facebook. It was pretty good to just hang out with Cam on our own as we don't really get the chance to hang out together much at all. Eventually we got to bed about three thirty which was a bad idea because we had a garage sale Saturday morning and I had to get up at five thirty ( I was still debunk in the shower )

Sunday consisted of all of us getting up and going to the even dale market which was great fun also. We ate Dagwood dogs for breakfast and brought some random shit like you do at a market and then just hung out together and relaxed Sunday night!

All in all I'd say a good weekend was had as usual. Loving life right now!!!

Ps- this is the first blog ruled entirely on my new iPad !

The Weekend

This weekend started without any plans at all and has ended with me feeling so happy I'm just sitting here smiling to myself as I write. Its baffling how lucky someone can be to find that person you can just do anything with and have a fantastic time! I'm very lucky!

Taz being gorgeous

 Friday night after finishing work Aaron and I decided to drive to my hometown to see my parents and go to the cinema to see The Avengers again. That movie is so insanely good and Laura hadn't had the chance to go and see it yet so we all went up on a three way date night and had an absolute ball together. Seeing my parents was a super bonus as well because somedays I just miss them so much.


Saturday I had lunch with some friends I'd been meaning to catch up with forever. It was so good to see them all and to hear about the things they're doing and planning although I left lunch feeling ver nostalgic, we all used to work together and spend every night emailing and being hilarious. I missed them all heaps and now I have my phone working again I fully intend on harassing them heaps!

Samson <3 

After Lunch Laura and I decided to toddle over to the gym over the road ( seriously its like a four second walk ) to have a look at joining up etc. We'd been talking about doing it for a while and so on a whim we went over, had a talk with the people there who showed us around and right on the spot we joined up! I'm pretty excited to be going to a proper gym again simply because the ones I've been going to are the 24 hr ones. I mean, I can understand how those kinds of gyms work out for people who are well educated on exercise and know exactly what they need to do ( my ex boyfriend for example ) but for the little old me that has pretty much no idea? I need to be pushed and encouraged. I kinda like being in a group all doing the same thing too mainly because I know I'm not the only one looking like an idiot! I also got to buy some super cute new sneakers!

Sunday was probably the most epic day of my weekend, Laura and I got up and went to a balance class at the gym! It was very cool to learn a little more about all the balances and poses involved with yoga etc. I stretched muscles I haven't felt in years and nearly face planted several times while trying to balance myself. There was a really old guy infront of me putting me to absolute shame! I was mortified at being so unfit for my age but it was definitely motivating. The instructor was really encouraging too which put my mind at ease a lot but it was so hard not to laugh, I mean I live with Laura and everything but there was a little too much face in arse action going on for us! 

This afternoon Aaron and I went to the gorge for a date. It was good to see Aaron had his camera out again as he's very talented when it comes to all things creative. I was super excited because he took me on the chairlift! I'm not sure why I hadn't been on it before considering I live ten minutes away but it was very fun and we walked back through the gorge and took some great pictures on the way, we must have looked funny to everyone else who was there because we were running around laughing without a care in the world.

I'm excited for the following week and to try some new classes out at the gym! I've even packed mine and Aarons lunch in an effort to save money and be a little healthier. I figure as long as I'm doing it its good to encourage him as well :)

I say bring on the long working week! I'm excited for a new lifestyle and a new attitude :)

Because I need to write.

I feel wierd. I just feel, wierd. I'm at a wierd place in my life and I just want a clear indication of where the hell I'm going.

I feel like for the last five or so years I've just been floating around not doing anything I've ever wanted or set out to do and I'm slowly realising the fact that I have simply wasted so much time planning to do things I've forgotten to do them. I want to do so much and for some strange reason I panic that I'm running out of time. Like, I'm twenty one for gods sake - its ridiculous.

I wanted this year to be the year I did something about my dreams but so far its turning out to be just the same old shit. Don't get me wrong I have an amazing family and fantastic friends here and we have great times together but its just not enough. I need to get out, to get away from this person I'm becoming. I dont want to be a retail manager all my life but I'm starting to think thats exactly whats going to happen.

I just have got to start thinking positive, as of right now. I AM going to pay off my debt. I AM going to find a dance class that will take me. I AM going to FINALLY get to music theatre school and become the person I know I am.

I know I was given my voice as a gift, I just have to use it.

Tuesday

What a fantastic start to the working week! Firstly I wake up at like 4am to what sounded like ninty seven cats in an all out brawl so I get out of bed and begrudgingly toddle outside in my nighty to hunt around for my Banjo.
Sure enough after calling him a few times he comes around from the front yard looking so bushy you'd think he was feral but he thankfully wasn't hurt. I took him inside but achieved nothing but freezing my arse off.

Before I know it it's seven am and I have to get up and shower which I do without any trouble, then I proceed to hunt for clothes to wear, I put on a cute knitted dress and think " why my gold elastic belt would look most fabulous with this " so I pull at the belt ... What's that? It's stuck? I pull it harder... Next thing I know it flicks put of the closet and the buckle hits me in the throat. I die.

Suffice to say I'm interested to see how today turns out. I also forgot my wallet, rolled my ankle twice and forgot to pack my lunch.

Sometimes I am too awesome for words.

kitty love

I had myself a great day off today. Granted, I did a lot of washing which was not exciting but I also got to have lunch with my sister, brother in law and niece! My family live an hour away so its rare any of them get time to come and visit me here. My niece is one in a few months and every single time I see her she gets bigger and is learning more things. It's incredible how fast kids grow.

I also got to have time with my cat banjo who I love dearly. He is a bit of a snob but means the world to me, Ia friend of a friend found him on the side of the road when he was only six weeks old and I've had him pretty much since. He was about one when I broke up with my boyfriend at the time and since I couldn't have him he was taken in by the RSPCA. I remember be totally heartbroken and felt so guilty when I learned this but I was told he was adopted fairly quickly. I spent nearly another year missing him and when I finally brought myself to be able to even think about getting another pet I jumped on the RSPCA website and there he was. What's more incredible is that there was no photo just a description of a ginger cat named Banjo. I called them instantly and after explaining my story they told me they couldn't tell me who surrendered him originally but if I could give her the correct address of where he was picked up they'd tell me yes or no. Suffice to say it was a yes and an hour drive later I walked into his cage and it was like we'd never been separated. The ladies at the RSPCA said although he'd only been there a day they'd never seen a cat meow and purr as much as he did :)

I'm not one to believe in anything out of the ordinary but you cannot tell me for a second that Banjo and I aren't destined to be together.